The days

Carpe Diem

..I won't say that I totally believe in such a philosophy. Living for the moment can stretch to some undesirable ends.However, for the moment, it proves useful in removing the "haiz" element in my life. Comparing this space with zen's blog, I must say that his entries are largely painted with emotions. Mine carries a more serious tone, or so it used to.It is beginning to bear some resemblance.
Accoring to my seiko, its another 12 minutes to midnight. Who would be the first? Not quite like me to enjoy blessings of happy birthdays.Tsst. Anyway, I did started off the day with a great amount of energy. Thinking of how I can actually work towards some achievements. Guess what, it was a business plan that woke me up. I was thinking of how I can make use of my contacts overseas to deal a solid punch in establishing myself...But soon, I was thinking of her again. I have crossed the time limit of 2 days. Must admit I was kinda feeling blue initially. An honest piece of my uncensored mind has this:
I didn't really want the pact to materialise this time. It was so much harder to swallow for a number of reasons. No words of affirmation if good enough for me to assume she will be happy. On top of that, I think I have really really learnt to appreciate her.The real reason, I can't bear to do it. Just can't...
Well..its 12...damn I am 20 what the...
But really. Yar..like Tanya chua is singing on national tv now. "What are you waiting for?" I think what I have seen in wallaby is prove enough that life is fragile. So why not enjoy the moment while she is here. Live for the moment till the feeling fades such that it is prove I don't have the blessings of destiny. But hack. Thats far too serious for something really simple. Its not that difficult to be happy and make her happy. Just think of table hockey.

~Wonder who is your little prince...Must be a very cute fox~

posted by zente @ 7:42 AM